When Silence Is No Longer Golden

 It is really hard to make a decision when you don't know what's your destination is looking like. This Aurea thing, on paper is really great. I just feel like it's not what I want. For many people, getting a house is a big milestone of their life, something that they would naturally want to celebrate. I can't feel the same with this Aurea thing I'm about to get. It feels more like a burden, yet another object I obtain that is of high price and value, but means nothing to me personally. How can this be? Am I just depressed??? I guess there's really no amount of logic and soundness on paper can change how one feels about something. It's really the luxury feel of it that makes it feel really off. One thing is that, my own family is not even living like that. How can I live in a golden cage eating out of silver platter when my family is still trying to save on air tickets, hotels, etc? It's not like they're living in poverty, but they're definitely ...

 Happiness is such an elusive thing. When I was young (actually even now), many people would equate having a lot of money as the key to happiness. There are also posts in social media saying about how money doesn't buy happiness, and about how many rich people are living very stressful lives, dying young, falling into sickness with weird complications. Oddly enough, I have first hand experience on this. I recalled the initial idea of why I started looking for house in the first place. Awalnya karena gw lumayan ga suka sama rumah gw yg baru ini di TB. Low floor, poor layout dan smaller master room (at least compared to the Commonwealth one). Always very noisy in the morning (and in random time of the day sometimes). I hated the fact that I have to deal with housemates to decide what to do with common area stuff, prefering to either just follow along or decide unilaterally without considering the consequence to others. I hate that I keep seeing dirty sinks every day. I hate to see be...