Values Shock

Hi readers! A few months have passed since my last post again and this time I have a big announcement: I've finally broken my single streak! In case you readers are wondering, it's her :D. It's indeed a great news, but the things that is in my mind right now is not so great...

Not sure if it was obvious, but she's not actually based in the same country as me. She took the initiative to make the first visit, which I think made sense since she has more things to do here than me there. Also, I still wasn't sure about the relationship at the time so her visiting me instead of the other way round means less investment on my side Selfish, I know, but even ignoring that fact, she still has other benefits to gain from visiting me anyway, such as meeting up with friends and family, enjoying Asian food, etc. In any case, I really appreciate the sacrifice she made for me, so I reciprocated in kind and made sure she enjoyed her time here (and when we parted, she said she did, so, yay).

With all that said, she is not perfect. There are some things about her that I have reservation about that I prefer to keep confidential even in this pseudo/semi-anonymity here. One thing in particular is gnawing at my mind right now. It started off when I finally told my parents about it, and they realized that something is off about the arrangement of her staying here. I realized I might have done something that I shouldn't do (it's nothing much on liberal/western perspective, but it's probably a big deal on conservative/Asian perspective). My mom tried to understand, but I felt bad for her trying to fit in in the increasingly liberal world. Also, for some reason talking to my mom opened up another perspective on my mind that I didn't consider previously, which made me feel morally uneasy. I brought it up to her and I was caught off guard by her answer. It wasn't a good time to talk for me so I put off the discussion for the time being.

I think I should take the time to think about it myself first, before bringing it up to her. Is that something that is opposed to my principles? Is it something that I can compromise with? Is it worth the sacrifice?

Life's hard, gotta go to sleep. All the best in your life endeavours.

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