You only grow up once you let go of the past

Hey readers. It has been quite a week full of thoughts and reflections (thus the more frequent blogpost than usual). I do not know why. Maybe because I am turning 20 soon. Or it could be just a coincidence. Whatever the case, I just found this post on 9gag which I find quite ..... profound. Do not get me wrong; I have dropped the habit of scrolling through 9gag for hours long long ago. The last time I saw 9gag, it basically full of shits that are not even funny, and the comments sections are full of people flaming each other. Nowadays, I only see 9gag posts on Facebook that are shared by my friends, which means all the posts have already been "filtered". Here's the link to the post I am writing about. I know the title in the post is different, but I personally feel that my title fits better. Well, I call it "my title" but I cannot say that I came up with it by myself. It is from the comments section. For once the comments section contains useful stuff.

Now, I know that I have just posted about how I feel that I have changed for the worse; my past seemed so great while the current life seems so miserable. After I saw that post, it got me to think; is it possible that my life feels miserable because I cannot let go off the past? Whenever I am idle, my mind would straight away start to ponder about my seemingly perfect past and comparing it with my current predicaments. It has to change. I would never be able to move on if I keep clinging on to the past. The future may have a lot of better things for me in store and I may miss them if I keep looking back and not forward.

Moreover, it is high time for me to do so. I am turning 20 real soon. I remember what my friend who turned 20 about a month ago said, "It is the age when you are both old and young at the same time." You are old because you just left your teenage years which makes you an adult, yet your experience in life is still very little which makes you young at the same time. (Or something along that line) Leaving my teenage year would be really difficult; I feel that I have not made the most of it. I have never got into a relationship, never done something "YOLO" (you only live once, meaning doing something fun and foolish), and many other things that most teenagers should have done. I am pretty much a good boy who obeys my parents, despite all my stories regarding my relationship with my dad.

Be it as it may, time will not turn back. I am leaving my teenage years pretty soon and there is no point in lamenting about what I have not done. What matters more is what to come. I must make the most of the little time I have left before really going into the real world. I know pretty well, despite whatever profound things I have written here, I will not change overnight. I would still continue doing whatever I did yesterday and the day before and the day before. However, at least, I realize that I need to let go. Let go of the past. And look forward to the future. I will undoubtedly look back again and wish that things never change, but that is what my blog is for. To remind me of the things that I have thought, said and done. To make me a better person everyday, just like what I write as the description of myself.

Once again, a melancholy post. I am sorry if you guys are looking for some funny or at least entertaining stories. This is not the place. Go to 9gag, 4chan or something of the kind. I may post funny and entertaining stuff in the future, but not now. Anyway, thank you for reading, if anyone at all reached this paragraph, I hope you find the 9gag post as meaningful as I find it to be. =)