Fewest post in a year! + FYP rant

Hi readers! (...tumbleweed...) It's almost the end of the year (not really, still 2 months away, but pretty close) and I realized that I have only posted for like 6 times this year!! Damn.. That's like less than once a month.. What happened to the promise to my friend that I am going to post at least once a month/week? (I can't even remember the promise anymore, nor can I find the post where I mentioned this... Can anyone of you readers help me find it lol)

Anyway...
This is just kinda like a heartbeat post, telling you guys that I'm still alive (more like telling my future self that I am still alive around this period), though I barely am. If you guessed it is because of FYP (Final Year Project), then you are absolutely correct. I have no idea how I got myself into this... Just kidding, I am fully aware of why I chose to do it even though I don't have to. Just a quick background info for those who are not NUS SoC students, for my batch, in order to graduate, one has to do one of the three: 1. Do a 6-months or two 3-months internship, 2. Take 3 level 4000 modules, 3. Do FYP. I have already fulfilled two 3-months internships (this and this) so I don't actually need to do FYP to graduate anymore. The catch, however, is that if you don't do FYP, even if you got the GPA that fulfils the criteria to get the First Class Honors, you won't get it and you will be counted as Second-Upper (not that it matters that much in the software development field). However, at the time when I was supposed to decide whether to do FYP or not, I was feeling on top of the world with me just got back from exchange, getting Google summer internship offer and getting into FBOA and whatnot. Basically, not in the most rational frame of mind to make such a decision (overly optimistic).

So now here I am. Super stressed out from the pressure, resulting in me not getting much done for the FYP interim report, and not doing very well on my other modules. I am the kind of person who is not easily stressed out from pressure, but when I do break down, I would be just unproductive for a period of time until I managed to take a -good- break, or the thing that has been pressing me is over, one way or another. Currently I am in that unproductive state. When I am in this state, usually I will always find things to do to simply waste time and hoping that the problem would go away. I used to binge-9gag-ing, binge-Quora-ing, and now I am binge-Youtube-ing (sorry for the super cringy way of me of saying these...). This is really bad that I have identified FYP as something unpleasant, because it makes me really unwilling to work on it, when what I really need to do right now is to get some work done on it.

End of rant. I hope when the semester ends and I have more time to work on this, I can get much more productive. Until then...

Ah just before I write my usual end salutation, I was reminded of something. So basically it turns out that my blog is *somewhat* popular as a source of information for students trying to get into universities in Singapore, as well as for students trying to apply for scholarship (so that means I do actually have readers! Yay! But they are more like passer-by because they don't stay to wait for my inconsistent updates... Sad...) I knew this because I keep getting emails from the contact form from time to time, especially around the university and scholarship application period. And another one just came, signing off with my signature phrase! Oh my gosh when I saw it.. I sort of felt really appreciated. People do read my posts! I kinda assumed that she read beyond what she came for because I believe I have not regularly started writing my signature phrase then (the post that I assume she read) but I could be wrong.. Or probably she just happens to have the same signature sign-off phrase like my blog does... lol.

But anyway. Enough of intermezzo. All the best in your life endeavours! :D

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