Things!

Hi readers! One post later and it's just 3 months away from a supposedly another obligatory new year post! Not to worry - regular (LOL) readers would know that no news means good news when it comes to me writing blogposts. So yes, I'm in a much better place than wherever I was when I posted the previous post (I'm too lazy and tired to open and read it, and anyway I would forget what I wanted to write in this post if I do).

So why do I write this post? It's just a mind-dump, really. There are a lot of things happening recently and many of them are fighting for air time in my mind. Let me just dump it now to satisfy them.

1. Completing PR formalities. Yeah, so I finally got my PR. Not sure if I ever shared about it in this blog before but I waited for 1.5 years for this. Actually I shouldn't really say I "wait" for this since I wasn't really hoping that I'd get it, in fact I don't care about it at all. But the approval came anyway so I should act upon it lest people who know I applied for PR would ask, and I would answer "Oh they gave me the approval but I decided not to take it for no reason at all" and then got judged at best or disappointed people at worst (my parents, say).

2. Work! I'm currently working on something I'm actually excited about, but the analysis paralysis and the fear for being perceived as dumb (aka impostor syndrome?) are real! I should probably try to be honest with myself, gather my thoughts, and try to talk to someone about this soon.

3. Packed weekend. This is what I'm a little annoyed about - my weekends are usually either totally free or started off a little occupied and then suddenly other things start to pop up closer to the weekend and then suddenly it became a totally not free weekend. I needed to take my picture taken for my new IC tomorrow morning (I probably shouldn't sleep too late lest I'd have an ugly picture on my IC for a good portion of my life), help out with AV for a basic Buddhism course in the afternoon, and probably visiting a friend's house in the evening. Then Sunday morning is hiking with a bunch of Buddhist friends, Sunday service in the afternoon (this is technically "free" time but yeah) and then a mock interview for a friend in the evening.

4. Ruminating over what I've said. This is a problem that I should probably tackle more deeply soon. I realize this is probably the biggest impediment to me having more energy to socialize more right now. I'm always worried that what I've said is either stupid (I think I'm starting to be more accepting) or is misunderstood (usually well-founded, I *think*). Wonder if the problem is with the ruminating or because my speaking skills is just not at the right level yet. Maybe both.

5. Delaying health-related wants/needs. I've been thinking of going to a TCM physician just to get a sense of how I'm doing health-wise from TCM perspective, as well as doing the free annual health checkup provided by my company's insurance. Also finding dentist recommendations to consult about getting my teeth straightened up.

6. Friends weddings! I'd be in the gang for one of a friend's bachelor's party and I'm excited and worried at the same time because I really don't know how to help and make sure things will be great for him!

OK that's it for now, I really should go to sleep so that my picture tomorrow morning would not turn out too ugly. Thanks for reading this nonsense and all the best in your life's endeavors!