When Silence Is No Longer Golden

 Many things happened recently, I don't have time to write and process them all :') but let's try doing it slowly one by one. Not in order, but whichever one I feel like processing in the moment. This time round, I wish to process about unconditional kindness. This is somewhat related to unconditional giving or generosity as well. This and about its impact on my own gracefulness in receiving kindness/generosity from others. The reason this came across my mind is due to a recent conversation I had with a girl I met late last year. I don't really want to say "I dated her" because I stopped having feelings for her on the second date, despite still meeting up with her almost every week for a month before finally telling her how I felt. Reason of  me still meeting her may or may not be apparent in this post. During our last meet up last Sunday, one thing led to another, and I said something like "I have no idea why you are being so nice to me" and she kin

 Whew, last night was quite an emotional roller coaster! I'm happy that my life direction so far has brought me enough mindful awareness not to wallow in that self pity too much and attempted to move the mind towards something more peaceful/wholesome (though the level of success still leaves something to be desired). I need to maintain the perspective that getting to know a girl is not about making the girl likes you - it's about knowing each other well and assess the compatibility, though I must say currently it's not quite that simple. It's currently about a choice - whether I want to take the risk and put myself in an uncomfortable but exciting situation or.. take a slower and gradual approach. The risk-taking approach is obviously by getting to know this new girl better even more, while trying not to lose myself into trying to fit in too much. The slower and gradual approach would be... to find someone else who fits my current personality and tendencies more. I got