When Silence Is No Longer Golden

 Hello again, can't believe I'd end up writing about this thing here again, but here goes... So I've been really anxious for the past few days. Like really anxious - I'm feeling tightness in my chest, uneasiness in my stomach, lower appetite, scattered thoughts, the usual anxiety stuff... And it's all because of a catch up session with her . I've never really wrote about how I feel about her. Honestly I'm not even sure. She's definitely very beautiful and it's always nice to have a pretty girlfriend. That aside, I recalled that what attracted me the most to her is how good of a listener she was, and how she's able to understand what I went through at the time. I always felt great after our meet up, and we'd talk about all our problems and worries. Things change along the way. I'm not really sure from when exactly, but there was a period when I was almost certain that she was kinda into me, but at the same time I know she was also being pu

Hi readers! One post later and it's just 3 months away from a supposedly another obligatory new year post! Not to worry - regular (LOL) readers would know that no news means good news when it comes to me writing blogposts. So yes, I'm in a much better place than wherever I was when I posted the previous post (I'm too lazy and tired to open and read it, and anyway I would forget what I wanted to write in this post if I do). So why do I write this post? It's just a mind-dump, really. There are a lot of things happening recently and many of them are fighting for air time in my mind. Let me just dump it now to satisfy them. 1. Completing PR formalities. Yeah, so I finally got my PR. Not sure if I ever shared about it in this blog before but I waited for 1.5 years for this. Actually I shouldn't really say I "wait" for this since I wasn't really hoping that I'd get it, in fact I don't care about it at all. But the approval came anyway so I should act

Hi again readers! Back with the Obligatory New Year Post series, and this time with a funny title I came up with myself (har har har). I'm actually surprised how hasn't anyone thought of this great pun that I came up with (har har har) but anyway here goes. So obviously, last year didn't go very well. I must say this must've come out as unexpected if I were to tell my previous year's self. Not even my 1-year-ago self, but also my 6-months-ago self. I remember quite vividly how I thought to myself, "2020 is going to be a very tough year for most people. But for me, it is probably going to be one of the best year of my life." Writing this reminds me of a pattern that I noticed when I was much younger that whatever that I think is going to happen, the exact opposite is going to happen instead, but if I were to tell someone about it, that exact thing is going to happen instead. I probably should've said that to someone so that it happened instead lol. The